great weekend

had great weekends..

skip work again 4 trips again..
dis round is a trip 2 pulau aman..

sat, went 2 a malay secondary fren's wedding

is great 2 c old frens along so long since graduation..

afte wedding lunch, went 2 bukit tambun at a fren's house..

had seafood 4 de past few days..

nw i noe y ppl at de mainland doest like seafood..

coz dey eat everyday

i went ther 4 few days nia i oso jelak wif seafood liao..xD

makan seafood again at pulau aman

n we did sum fishing..

suprisingly i caught 2 fishes..

eventhou oly 2 fishes bt 4 a beginner like me is alot d k..LOL

k la shall upload pics whn im free..

sum sneak ler..xD

:S

im mad over a small matter again..

wad is wrong wif me again??

i wonder!

bad attitude strikes again n i feel bad..

i wonder y cant u b understanding??

wher r all my close frens wic i can spill out all my problems??

perhaps, i dun hav any..

is my very own problem i noe..

LOL

=)

LOL

current addiction.. <3

你一個人失了魂 清晨哭到夜深 不要別人問我不出聲一直等 聽你說你心疼 當時好傻好天真如果可以我願意 這樣陪你到永恆讓我照顧你 面對再大的風雨 也能微笑做自己像個孩子 躺在我懷裡讓我照顧你 在這荒蕪世界裡就算有新的劇情 在明天等著你 然而在你最需要的此刻 請讓我照顧你總有一天會有人 一個懂你的人 讓你從此不心疼如果可以我願意 這樣陪你到永恆讓我照顧你 面對再大的風雨 也能微笑做自己像個孩子 躺在我懷裡讓我照顧你 在這荒蕪世界裡就算有新的劇情 在明天等著你然而在你最需要的此刻請讓我照顧你你看破了虛偽 拆穿愛的假面後悔曾經為他 付出一切我會在你身邊 當你傷心欲絕 不奢望你 偶然垂憐讓我照顧你 面對再大的風雨 也能微笑做自己像個孩子 躺在我懷裡讓我照顧你 在這荒蕪世界裡就算有新的劇情 在明天等著你當你對這世界失去信任請讓我照顧你

so so so so so in LOVE WIF HER!! xD

BTW SHE"S A GIRL!! nt a boy..hahha

a very unique girl wif a very unique voice..<3

she rocks in EVERYTHING!!! <3<3<3

??

明知会受到伤害，

但我还是无法控制自己免受伤害。。

是我愚蠢吗?

8/11/09

uh huh..
yesterday went 2 grdma's house n party at de bitch's house..
we went crazy doing all crazy stuffs til de very early in de morning..
i did 4gt dat im working de nex day..
n de nex minute on ma mind is,
IM LAZY N IM NT GONNA WORK 2DY!
much "thanks" 2 de babes wic made me skip work..
n 2dy itself went sp wif bitches afte few hours of slip..
de biggest bitch of all drove us down town wif her CRV..
eventhou is abit ulu ler bt stil ok la..
dun really enjoy much as ther's nothing nice other den de extremely
CHEAP N NICE FOOD!
we basically eat mor den exploring de whole kampung..
nex trip is gonna b pulau aman or pulau jerejak..
n n n nt 2 4gt dat im curently so much addicted 2 cafe world..
"terima kasih" again 4 making me crazy jess n janice yew!
sum1 did call, im happie 4 a second n de nex second i remind myself,
I SHUD STOP THINKING N MOVE ON!
eventhou im able 2 control de nex seconds,
bt i failed at de nex hour..
im thinking of de sum1 for 1 damn FREAKING WHOLE DAY!
count me useless!
i knew i stil care much..
reviewing those old pictures, heartache twice..


n 2 ma babes,
gebly ong, jess khaw, nick tan, mintz lim, jammy ong, flora teoh, choong lai san and gabriel tan..
i jus wanna tel de world I LOVE U PPL! n
im officially MISSing U ppl!
babes wic r currently in aus, cum bac faster..
n those wic is nw in KL, il c u guys nex week! (cant wait)
n those wic is in PG, get ur asses off ur house n meet me up asap..or else
IL GO UR HOUSE N KOREK U! p/s: u noe who u r.. LOL


IM NOE IM KINDA INSANE! xD

sad or happie??

sorry 4 being emo again..

i felt like crying in sudden..

i posted sumting in fb's wall hoping dat sum1 could ever notice hw i felt..

too bad, sum1 did nt notice no matter hw muc i care 4 everything..

im hoping dat i could bring everything bac 4 de 1 last chance bt it seems 2 fail..

dat makes me so so sad n happie at de same time..

eventhou i do nt get wad i wan, at least i knew i have great frens around..

alot commented on de post i made..

seriously i love dem ppl..dey rocks..

i felt alive out of sudden..

i knew everything is really over..

i hav tonnes of cares in reply bt none of dem is frm de sum1..

i love my frens seriously..

eventhou those who is nt so close 2 me could ever notice hw i felt..

i wonder y u dont!

im seriously hurt n i knew everything is really OVER once again..

im tired of alwuyz being de sacrificed one..

im really tired of everything..

i am nt gonna love any1 anymor frm now on..

other half nor best frens..

nt 2 say i dun love my frens bt i shall say i heart dem instead of loving dem..

i wil neve get so close 2 any1 anymor..

i remember a fren of mine said, i seldom let any1 enters my heart..

n i replied "nonono, it depends on who de person is, unless i really trust dat person, if nt no1 shall

have de permission 2 open de door of my heart"

i used 2 b so protective towards my heart..

bt im hurt stil coz i left a little hole n let de person i used 2 tot i could trust enters..

so frm now on, il shut de door n no1 shall enters anymor..

i could nt trust anymor ppl..

i wil hav 2 b neutral in order 2 protect myself..

im being too stupid all these years..

im such a losser in relationships..

in love n also relationship between frens..

i dun deserve a true fren??

remember, U HURT LESS IF U DUN CARE DAT MUCH!

lots mor comments..

couldnt fit de screen ni..

c hw lovely dey r..

dey made my day seriously.. =)

ms.gebly i "LOVE U"! xD

a good listener is needed in ma life..
frens cum n go..
we hardly find sum1 wic has de same thinking 2 share thoughts..
i used 2 share my sorrows and complains wif a sum1 i really care..
de sum1 is alwuyz ther no matter wad happens..
dat sum1 used 2 b my everything n i heart dat sum1 so much n oly god noes hw much it is..
dat sum1 wuz so so close to me n we shall talk bou everything..
dat sum1 used 2 b de best i ever had..
A REAL BEST BEST FREN..
whenever i took out my fon,
de 1st person i tot of, is alwuyz de sum1..
every1 grow older each day..
every1 changes every minute..
is good 2 make changes bt de relationship change as well..
i miss those moments wher we share our hapiness n sorrows..
i stil heart de sum1 very much til this days..
can we really like get de feeling bac??
i really miss those day..
nevertheless, iv found 1..
is none other den de miss gebly wic is nw in australia..
she alwuyz cares 4 me even she's so far far away frm here..
u even ignore ur gf in order 2 listen 2 my complains..
i hope cindy doesnt hate me!xD
eventhou she often says im stupid,
still, i love her..buddy, thx 4 de care these days..
i wouldnt have gone thru everything withou u..
IDIOT! u betta b bac asap as im missing u damn freaking much..
we humans do face up n downs,
bt wif great frens around, everything is betta 2mr..
CHEERS! =)

proven

suprise call frm my long-lost-pi-tak-tau-mana-jungle-mia-best friend wic is nw in KL..
felt like slapping her as she wakes me up frm my beautiful dream at 9.45AM!!!
couldnt get 2 slip afte de freaking call..
nick called telling me she jus broke up wif her gf mintz..
shock of life hearing dat coming frm her mouth..
i jus couldnt bliv dat such a good couple can also break off jus lidat..
let me tel u guys hw many years dey were on..
since form 2 wic is 14 years till nw 22 years old..
it has been 9 FREAKING YEARS!!!
dey r de best couple iv ever seen..
seldom quarel n best in everything..
tolerance n trust is alwuyz wad dey insist on..
n ul neve have de chance 2 actually korek anything bad in dem..
bt nw dey r no longer 2gether..
dat makes me so so sad behalf of dem..
dey were both 1st for each oth n did nt hav any ex..
n dey definately perfectly sweet n hot 2gether..
c nw everything is proven dat nothing last 4eva..
so y commiting so much in a relationship n make urself miserable??
u might as well stay single n hav great frens n family around..
dey r alwuyz betta compare 2 ur oth half..
im glad 4 having great frens n family around.. =)

morning..

hello world..
i jus woke up frm de few hours nap..
its been a tiring day since yesterday as i hardly slip..
sum1's running on ma mind since i received de call,
telling me, dat de sum1 is coming bac in 3 weeks time..
i wuz so darn happie at 1st bt mood swings afte de excitement..
its been long since i last met biie..
seriously i miss everything bou biie..
bt whn it comes 2 thinking bou hw shud i face biie,
iv gone mad once again..
wuz thinking hw shud i talk 2 biie abou us n
hw shud i treat biie as..
3 mor weeks til we meet..
de usual me doesnt even think of wad im gonna do de nex day..
i used 2 say "aiya so long kuk think of it buat apa???"
seriously i hate planning coz i knew it wil b less exciting if we do plans..
bt dis time is different, is 3 mor weeks bt iv already start thinking on hw shud i face de situation..
a fren of mine said, is because i do care bou it alot, dats y i start thinking of it so fast..
mayb she's rite..mayb i shud stop thinking n let everything comes on naturally..
i tot im over u! bt i dont!
shall we get bac 2gether??
decision is at de hands of me..

biie i heart u still! do u hear me??

quarelling everyday is tiring bt nt having u in de chapters of my life is suffering!

aikZ

had a terrible day indeed..

is nt gd at all..

=(

me lovey my buds

so so so in love wif my buddies rite nw..

dey rockz my world..

i miss de feeling of being sayang-ed

eventhou is nt de sayang frm my oth half bt dey seriously made my day!

=)

terrible mood

great grandma jus pass away dis morning..
iv been crying 4 de past few hours..
jus couldnt bliv dat she actually leave us lidat..
perhaps is good 4 her as she've been struggling 4 quite sum time..
bt if ther's a choice, i would stil prefer she's wif us..
i regreted so much 4 nt accompany her mor whn she's stil in dis world..
i regreted 4 nt seeing her 4 de 1 last time b4 she leave dis world..
i hate myself 4 sliping soundly while she pass away dis morning..
i regreted so so much 4 nt being wad a great granddaughter shud do..
i regreted so so so much bou everything..
im sorry cho cho..
iv neve been a good granddaughter since 4eva..
bt i promise dat il alwuyz b good n behave in wad i shud..
we'll take care, dun worry n

MAY U REST IN PEACE !

u noe we alwuyz loves u..<3

happie burfdae! <3

happie burfdae to my mummy!

may all ya wishes cum true n

HOPE U ENJOY WAD WE DID 4 U!!

lovey**

=)

results releasing date yesterday..

results satisfied n im happie.. =)

wonderful day spent wif my bitches yesterday nite..

amazing sushi king n chilling at winter warmers..

shall update real soon wif my basi's posts..xD

full stop pls

iv been spending so damn freaking much lately..
n oly god noes hw much iv spent..
i couldnt stop maself frm buying all de stuffs i like..
for example, lets talk bou 2day..
i went shopping wif buddies n family de whole day..
below r de money iv spent 2dy..
-rm120 for my handphone bill..
-rm100 activation fee for my new maxis broadband..
(hoorayyy coz ther wil b no mor lousy internet access frm nw on..)
-rm 80 for mummy's cd..
-rm39 for sis's mascara..(c hw i love my sis..xD)
-rm 29.90 for bro's ben 10's racing car..
-rm 129.90 for my new bag..
-3 boxers wic cost me rm50..
-a new bangle wic is rm 69.90..
-2 new tops wic is rm40..(eventhou is nt expensive bt stil money!)
-rm 50++ for groceries wic include my daily tit-bits..
-n i used my credit card again..for my broadband's auto debit..=(

oh god! who can stop me frm spending money??

help me! i need sum1 2 control my financial..

n im getting an iPhone nex month n 1.5 months mor to HK trip wif my hiao hiao..

hw am i gonna survive if i keep spending dat much??

ISH!!

FULL STOP PLS!!!

可以吗??

我只是想要幸福...

可以吗??

3.42am

if oly i could turn back time,

i wil make sure everything is of a perfect condition..

is too late 2 speak or complain nw..

is today

TOTALLY FUCKED UP!

every1 told me dat i seems upset afte de incident wic happened dis afternoon..

im here 2 clarify dat IM OKEY!!

yea rite, i admit im fucking pissed off bt i feel betta nw..

coz uv proven dat im betta den u in wateva it is..

keep ur fucking mouth shut bitch..

or else il FUCK U UP!!!

stop being stupid n get bac 2 ur mama n suck everything up!

"bitches get a life pls!"

or il BITE!

owwwwhhhh

is heart breaking seeing de lovely couple shane n carmen breaks..

ignore me as im crazy over a show wic lovely couple breaks 4 such a stupid reason..

owwwwhhh..i think im goin insane soon.. =)

hahahhaaa..blog has been rusty n im here jus 2 tel de world,

IM NT DEAD!!!!

take care dudes..

sorrie 4 being lazy 2 make any updates..

=)

sum1 jus made my day..

seriously!

iv gt no place 2 express de happiness other den de bloggie!!

im happie happie HAPPIE!!! =)

LOL

sleepless nite again!
i miss calling de word biie out of sudden..
i dun noe wad's de reason behind it..
i no longer remind maself bou everything..
perhaps i shud say im already okey..
it stil hurts badly whn i recall everything..
de feeling shall fade in a short while i guess..
de oly thing im focusing nw is my job..
i do nt 1 2 care bou these stuffs anymor..
it doesnt bring any benefit afterall..
iv lost everything..
my love ones, my best frens n everyting!
de oly 1 i hav nw is my family..
i heart dem seriously..
perhaps is de oly thing i care nw! <3

little update

wuz so darn busy dis few days..

hardly hav any time on9-ing..

shall update on recent outing wic is freaking nice..

n had lots of outing nowadays..

shall update soon..

dis is a pic of gatherin wif de classmates..

is at e-gate..iv 4gotten whn it is..xD

shall updates soon on de raya celebration, honey's bdy party,

gatherin wif de peeps frm kl n nt forgettin de awesome trip i had 2dy..

til den take care ppl!! <3

alwuyz de best..

y1-y2m8..

8.03pm

i hope i could shout my lungs out dis minute..

CAN I???

i hope ther's sum1 2 share hw i feel rite nw..

bt ther's no1 dat i can actually rely on..

so pathetic huh??

full stop?/

i wuz once had de best of everything..
i tot it would stay eternally as long as effort is made..
i finally noe dat im so dead wrong..
decisions made n i regreted badly 4 it..
things werent as much as us expected..
instead,it happens when is least expected..
i tot everything could jus ended once i no longer care bou it..
it might b a new start perhaps..
bt could a new thing starts whn de old stuffs is nt ended??
blame me blame me 4 my endless stupidity..
i couldnt find any1 2 blame except de own me..
is heartache whn i wanted 2 put a full stop..
once full stop is ther, everything shall end..
2 put a full stop aint an easy thing..
it takes time n iv taken long enuf..
i shall move on..
im no longer a small kid..
decisions made is 2 b treated as real n regrets r nt highly appreciated..
i noe i shud in order 2 make myself happier..
i do sumtimes wonder y do we humans make decisions??
isnt it a cruel thing 2 us??

EVERYTHING SHALL COMES TO AN END! =)

fuyoooohhhh

i couldnt stop myself frm smiling de whole day afte de call..

is de reward of hard work..

everything gets paid off at last..

fuyooohhh..

im stil very excited n freaking happie til dis very minute..

CHEERS =)

..

..

on de other hand,

tired of de endless n unbreakable complicated relationship..

whn can i get out frm dis shit..

stil mind stucked till dis day eventhou it has been months..

one word, SIEN!

n i miss dis 3 dudes wic is nw in KL n AUS ..

get bac 2 penang asap pls..!!

dis is wad we call a STAR

saw jaclyn victor again..
is de second time i actually saw her in person..
she's stil as gorgeous as 2 years bac whn i saw her..
bac wif her new short hair style n me likey her hair..
bringing her 3rd album "jaclyn victor 3"..
she's de judge of de nite 4 queens's shop n sing contest..
she present herself very well wif de best pitch n vocal ever eventhou she's havin terrible sore troat..
starting off wif de 1st song halo frm beyonce..
den off 2 de contest til de closing wif her most famous song "gemilang"
oh god..she's genius..! inilah baru dipanggil star..
talented n banyak humble nt like de other malaysian singer wic is so so hao len..

judges of de nite..

dunno apa lady. jason(ATQ2003's finalist),jaclyn(malaysian idol 2004) n local actress(dunno apa name)xD

i need time

sorry daddy mummy..
iv neve been a good girl since u ppl delivered me 2 dis world..
i alwuyz feel sorrie 4 being dat way..
i jus couldnt control myself..
i noe both of u r respecting me by keeping silence all these years..
i noe im wrong since de very 1st day i choose 2 b dat way..
u alwuyz gave me de best of everything bt disappoinment is wad u get in return..
i hope i would change n gv me sumtime..
i need time!
i noe is time 2 change n i WILL!!
cheers=)

hormedy..xD

exam is finally over n ther ended my nightmares..
no mor finals frm nw on..! hoooraaayyy!.xD
stayed up de whole nite burning de very last minute midnite oil til both eyes bengkak like hell..
2dy's paper sucks big time..4gt bou it, is all over..
however managed 2 tahan til 6pm afte exam oly get onto de bed 2 pig..xD
did left de hall earlier as even if i crap ther'll b no marks 4 me n even wasting my ink n TIME!!
went 2 gurney 4 movie wif sum1 n had lunch ther..
met evon ewe yen yen again..!!
again again n again..
bump into her almost everyday nowadays , everywher!
ahahhaha..we even bump in de cinema 4 de same movie..
watched "wher gt ghost"..
ini adalah untuk membalas dendam sebab friday i wuz sufferin de whole nite while de bitches enjoy watching their movie! LOL
i memang mempersiasuikan myself cz i laughed LOUDLY!!
dey claimed dat im de loudest in de cinema..xD
i admit i couldnt control myself whn it comes 2 comedy movies..
highly recommended..is a nice movie..
i would rate it 4 stars..
i dun really like de story line, bt it is of de best on de laughing part..

few hours mor til liberation! =)

it has been awhile since i last went 2 de public library..
1st visit 2dy afte so many years..xD
met an old fren ther..joanne
whnever im ther, il c her..
dat place is definately her second home..LOL
such a hardworking girl..
few mor hours til liberation..
beh hu beh hu 1 2 go yao yao wif de rest d..
2dy, sucks 2 de max..
bitches is hitting de cinema 4 singapore's hormedy..(horror+comedy show)xD
while im struggling 4 2mr's exam..
GERAM!!!! nvm, i shall catch all up 2mr nite!!
til then wish me luck!!
=)

me vaining..