为何要忘记一个人那么难！

21 jan 2012

Afte a whole nite conversation wif sumone, i finally realize dat people around me r jus too fake!
Everyone is treating me like a fool!
I jus realize no matter hw i do,
I wil always b de one nt being trusted.
Whn things dun get right,
Im always de one being blamed eventhou i didnt did wad i shudnt!
Is so sad to noe dat even ppl u care thinks de same way!
Im hurt! Totally hurt.
I jus couldnt sleep de whole nite.
I shud really stop caring for sumone!
I hate dat kinda feeling of nt being trusted.

7 freaking days

Is 6am rite nw n im blogging dis usin mobile at stallions service apartment.
Babe is gonna leave me in another 7 hours for KL again!
Im nt gonna c dis best fren of mine for 7 freaking days.
Im seriously damn insane nt sleeping bt looking at her stupid yet cute sleeping face.
Having her around for a week plus is totally awesome as it reminds me bou our blissful beautiful past withou arguement n full of tolerant.
Thinking abou nt having her around me is totally sad b down.
I felt like hugging her bt i knew i shudnt as i shud keep a distance btween us.
I shudnt repeat wad i did on her years ago n hurt her once mor!
Im very comfortable wif de relationship between de both of us rite nw as ther's no commitment n promises made dat wil make us quarrel!
Babe, pls b bac in 7 mor days as i need u by my side.
ILY wif all i have n take care whn u r bac in KL for CNY celebrations. 

Thank u! <3

U neve fail to cheer me.
Thanks for wad u've done.
:)

ILY

U're finally bac to my side.
Dis whole week of togetherness wif u is totally great.
Babe, thanks for everything u've done.
U neve fail to put a smile on my face.
Eventhou u're oly bac for a week,
It seems like its been a year.
Having u around is totally awesome.
Pls cum bac mor often as i nd a great fren like u around to cheers me.
Lastly, i love u wif all i have n u r de best iv ever had.
I miss us! Time flies.
Dis pic was taken years ago.
:)

My love

My love as a fren for u has already faded since dat day. I dun noe y. Eventhou i told myself i shudnt care anymor for u, bt my brain stil cares bt mayb no longer dat strong! Wad i noe is i shud move on! N there's mor ppl dat cares for me more den u. Im so tired of being de one sacrificing for our frenship. Lao ee is de one dat is always being ther for me no matter wad happens. She neve let me feel de feeling of sacrifice n tiredness. I always feel comfortable being in such frenship. Lao ee, thanks for being ther always. Iloveu loads n thx for bringing my baby boy to dis world! He definately brings lots laughter n cheer up my life! <3 the love of my life!!!!!

My burfdae pic!

Love all my buddies! Dey totally rockz my world. Thank u again loves! <3 im glad god granted me all of u. :)

my birthday

happy birthday to myself!

birthday is finally over!

it has nt been a happy one since my broke up 3 years ago.

nt having her in my life is jus meaningless.

everyone did alot for me n everyone jus made my day.

im glad dat god grated me these kind of awesome ppl to me.

im so so touched by all their doings.

some even baked cake for me.

it might nt taste as nice as pastries bt is de thoughts dat counts.

everyone juz sayang me too much.

seriously too much til i almost cried!

unfortunately, i couldnt get de one thing dat i wanted.

dis is wad we cal human.

u r already having de best of everything bt u wil neve noe hw to appreciate.

wher by someone dat doesnt even care or giv a damn on u, u wil care like hell.

i seriously damn mad on u.

u noe who u r.

everyone make de effort of making my day a special n unforgetable one bt wad bou u??

u hosted a dinner for me dat makes me happy bt i cant feel de sincereness at all.

u r jus gathering everyone to celebrate my big day bt withou de heart in it.

all i ever wanted is jus a simple msg saying happy birthday!

dats all i ever need.

u dun hav to bring me to any fine restaurant for dinner or anything.

all i every wanted is jus a wish frm u.

iv been waiting for de whole day n even at de last minute of my bdy,

im nt receiving a wish frm u personally.

im seriously very sad.

im seriously sad til i felt like crying out of sudden.

i dunno y i reacted dat way bt all i noe is i care alot for u.

i seriously do care alot!

wad is wrong wif me?

iv gt lots of frens n buddies around dat cares n love me loads.

bt i refuse n refrain myself frm dem.

all i ever wanted is u!

y is our friendship becoming lidat??/

im seriously so unhappy.

hw could u ruined my birthday??

hw can u hav de ability n me allowing u to ruined my bdy mood??

hw could u?? TEL ME!!!!

i was down de whole dinner session bt i knew u r no longer mine.

our friendship has ended long long time ago.

is me de oly dat thinks i could do sumthing to save our friendship.

bt too bad. im wrong totally wrong!

u dun even giv a damn on hw i feel n felt.

dis round, im serious gonna let u off.

i shud stop myself frm getting hurt d.

is enuf, totally enuf!!!

i shud face de fact dat everything is no longer de same.

take care n all de best to u.

it hurts badly. seriously hurts badly n

dis feeling is as same as hw my ex hurts me.

im totally fragile as for nw.

i shud really keep a distance frm anyone else to prevent ppl hurting me again.

the two most important girl in my life shud really disappear in my life frm nw on.

ah biie, ah dear gudbye!

if no de one dat dies at de end is MYSELF!

Thank u! <3

Thank u for ur breakfast! Dat would b de best breakfast iv ever had. Its been long since dis kinda feeling comes. Babe, u neve fail to cheer me. Bt stil ther's a distance. I appreciates all ur thoughts n all u've done. Im really touched. No one coz ever do dis for me. Oly u. If i could turn bac time, i promise il neve hurt u like wad i did n love u wil all i have. If i could turn bac time, we would b de best couple on earth! Too bad, everything is too late! Babe take care. U hav all my blessings. Find a great person dat noes hw to appreciate u. Im sorry! Stop treating me so gud pls. U make me feel guilty. U deserve someone dat is so much better.

绝口 ! 不提爱你

看见你为了我哭真的是心死了！

已经两年了。为何还是放不下这段6年的感情？

分手那天起，我告诉自己可别让你再流泪。

但我做不到！

我还是让你流泪了。

就算你总是做许多伤害我的事，

但到最后我还是原谅了你。

因为我相信你还是有爱我和疼我的一颗心。

你根本无法在我世界里消失。

也许我们才是最适合对方的吧。

因为只是我们彼此才知道对方的痛。

比，谢谢你这些年来对我的包容。

你会是我这一辈子最爱的好朋友！

谢谢你所为我付出的一切。

真的是很感动和高兴曾经拥有你。

给不了你想要的幸福是我这被子最遗憾的一件事。

我会把这六年的回忆永远记在心里。

比，我会永远永远的爱你。

:(

Y am i so useless??
Im such a big girl d.
Bt stil make my parents worry for me so much!
Im so so useless!!!
Is so suffering each time i think abou hw useless i am!!!
Ther's nothing dat im gud at.
Y couldnt i do sumthing dat makes my parents proud of it??
Im so so so useless!
Ther's no other word dat could describe me at all!
Oly one n oly word, wic is
USELESS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Why??

Y is everyone around me cant stop betraying me one after another??
Im feeling so disappointing towards those i care.
Too much. I had too much.
I shud really stop caring for others n love myself more.
No one deserve my care n de oly human dat deserve my love is oly my family!! Is sad to say dat iv lost trust wif de word frienship. Is totally hurtful whn ppl u love n care betrays n disbelief wad u said. Wad can i say more?? Haihz! :(

24th august 2011

Is 24th of august!

Is de anniversary day of us.

Eventhou its been long since break up, i still miss de day.

Is de day we started our promise years ago..

Haihz

我心很痛很痛很痛！

真的是很痛！

:(

你是錯的人!!!

明知道愛情並不牢靠 但是我還是拼命往裡跳
明知道再走可能是監牢 但是我還是相信只是煎熬
朋友都勸我不要不要 不要拿自己的幸福開玩笑
但是做人已經那麼累 假惺惺的想要逃
在愛裡連真心都不能給 這才真正的可笑
愛得太真 太容易 讓自己犧牲 太容易讓自己沉淪
太容易 不顧一切 滿是傷痕
我太笨 明知道你是錯的人
明知道這不是緣分 但是我還奮不顧身
明知道愛情並不牢靠 但是我還是拼命往裡跳
明知道再走可能是監牢 但是我還是相信只是煎熬
朋友都勸我不要不要 不要拿自己的幸福開玩笑
但是做人已經那麼累 假惺惺的想要逃
在愛裡連真心都不能給 這才真的真正的可笑
愛得太真 太容易 讓自己犧牲 太容易讓自己沉淪
太容易 不顧一切 滿是傷痕
我太笨 明知道你是錯的人
明知道這不是緣分 但是我還奮不顧身
可能 在愛裡面這樣算笨
可能 永遠沒有所謂永恆
但是我 不願放棄這裡面一點點可能 寧願笨也不想要悔恨
愛得太真 太容易 讓自己犧牲 太容易讓自己沉淪 太容易 不顧一切 滿是傷痕
我太笨 明知道你是錯的人 明知道這不是緣分 但我還是奮不顧身
我太笨 明知道你是錯的人 明知道這不是緣分 但我相信有點可能!

你是錯的人!!!

saw dis pic on net!

she has a very beautiful hair!

she tied it perfectly!

how i hope sumone could tie dis n hang out whole day wif me.

anyone?? babe, u?? :)

when is it gonna happen??

iv been waiting for it since forever!

everything is no longer de same.

is me or u??

:(

im always proud of myself.

idiots, pls stop all those stupid stuffs wic is nw going on in destroying my life.

ul never hav a chance to do so.

thank you! coz im proud proud proud in wad ever im doing! :)

:)

quoted by small beary.

jus wana shout dis out to u.

:)

"就算我不是你的那个谁，只要能让你幸福，我也愿意为你做任何事."

can i?

i seriously need a getaway soon.

i wanted to go travelling alone wif backpack to a city dat no one noes me/

can i??

happie burfdae to de king of my heart!

is a delayed post actually.

is daddy's burfdae last month.

i bought him a new handphone as a present.

n he feels very happie having it as a gift.

brought him for steamboat n bbq coz he says suddenly wanna

"da pin lou"

n he also wants bbq, dats y brought him to town for it.

he ate alot n we bought him a beautiful cheese cake.

let pics explains it all.

the king of my heart

thanks for everything daddy. :)

the old couple. LOL

my lovely family members

his cake

he's cute. LOL

us the family photos

sis n me

djoint

that night is a tough nite for me n janice as well.

she n bf quarreled, n me knowing sumthing wic hurts me so so deep.

i could accept de news i knew at all.

i was so so moody n so is janice.

both of us went upr together wif chai yin for sum beer.

we were both too sad n so we drank so much dat night.

janice vomitted n had serious hangover de nex day.

beers are always good buddy whn u r emo or sad.

i noe i might seems stupid making myself drunk as problems wont settle even i do so,

bt at least i do nt hav to think of de problem at dat moment.

right>?? i noe im nt supposed to drink any beers due to my health prob,

bt wad to do?? my heart ask me to do so.

at least it releases my stress.

the sorrow girl of the night

we muz make ourself look happy n mater wad happens

n so we SMILED! :)

n ther comes jess joining us after her movie.

god, y is dis ever happen to us??

janice's burfdae

celebrated janice's burfdae in chillis.

she has nt been ther for a meal,

dat is y dis year we plan to bring her ther for nice meal! :)

let pichaasss do all de talking kay,

iv been so lazy to update blogs.

:(

the mash up

spagetthi, janice

chicken, chien yi

fish n chips, huey

chips wif bacons, jess

n dis is MINE! :)

jess n i

us the always four.

i miss the old us.

the pictures of four of us is getting lesser day by day.

dis is wad makes me heartache most!

:(

my girlfriend n me!

birthday girl n mua!

la mei zhi

is us again!

im so mad at u rite nw.

u neve think hw i felt.

u jus khi siao whenever u wan.

i couldnt stand u shouting n being au ban bcoz of dat person.

nevertheless, i stil love u lots.

janice yew! pls wake up dat, dat person doesnt suit u at all

the first cake

second cake

me acting crazy ther n dey said IM CUTE!

WTH!

huey snap dis pic accidentally n

she keeps saying she likes dis pic alot coz ther's dis thing cal "FEEL" LOL

i seriously look freaking fat lorrr!

n i love her always n wil love her wif all i have!

jess n me :)

the crazy threes

n me being zhi lian again. LOL

n wif a closing pic of us.

i love u all much!

:)