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Friday, July 4, 2014

its been so so so lonng since im here.
its a good thing dat i dun come here anymore as dis is a place where i complain.
today im here again is because im afriad of being right wif wad iv predicted.
im seriously damn scared dat im really sick.
iv been having dis pain below my armpit n very near to my breast for de past 2 weeks,
de pain hasnt been any better n even got worse yesterday night,
im seriously scared to go for a medical check up n i went googled abou dis pain.
guess wad i found out.
it is a symptoms of a breast cancer as ur lymp nodes is blocked.
i wouldnt want to tel my parents bou dis as im afraid dat they wil b very worry for dat,
till everything is confirmed, i shall annouce.
what shud i do?
im oly 25. OMG!!


Saturday, December 8, 2012

Eve

I didnt realize its been so long since im here.
Dat means my life has been good.
Its it a good thing dat im nt here to find u, dear diary?
Perhaps dis is de oly place i could splash all my problems n sorrows.
Withou realizing, de year of 2012 is ending real soon.
Is de month of dec now n is my birthday month.
I didnt realize it is my birthday til my mum, dad n ex gav me my presents today.
Another day to my big day bt iv already hav my presents in hand.
It feels so good dat everyone remembers my birthday.
Its feels even better whn u knew u stand a place on someone's heart.
Iv neve been dis excited n happy before for my birthday.
Bithday has been sumthing very common and super fine n normal day for me.
Iv neve wanted to celebrate dis day at all as it brings sorrow n bad memories each time i recall.
Bt dis year is different.
Im abit excited n happy for it.
Dis year, im having individual dinner wif de 2 most important woman in my life.
Tomorrow, de eve birthday, il b having dinner wif bestie wic is my dear.
She's dating me for a dinner tomorrow nite since a month ago.
It feels so good to b close to her like last time.
Eventhou i always quarrel wif her, bt in de end, she wil jus do sumthibg wic totally melts my heart.
I couldnt resist de warmness n care!
As for baby, she's outstation for an audit. Wouldnt b able to celebrate my birthday wif me.
Hw i wish she's de one who celebrates my eve bdy wif me.
All i ever wanted is always her.
Dis year, my suprise present frm her is a fossil full genuine leather backpack.
Its so sweet of her to realize my backpack is torn n i seriously need a replacement.
Eventhou we r no longer together, we r still such a good fren to look like a couple.
It feels better to b a fren than a couple.
Baby promises to giv me a replacement celebration down at KL.
so il b heading down to KL nex week whn she's bac!
Im so happy for her as she's doing so well on her career.
She has so much increament in her salary.
Perhaps, she has a higher salary than i do. LOL
Did i jus mention she has already broke up wif her girlfren?
Yes! She did broke up.
She didnt want to mention de reason of breaking up.
Bt deep in my heart, i felt happy coz i knew de reason behind it!
Gonna end dis now n i hope nt seeing u again in a short period of time as i do nt hope im in an unhappy mode.
Good night diary! :)

Thursday, August 23, 2012

I jus finis my conversation wif u.
Its been long since i talk to u.
U called and talked so much wif me.
Tomorrow is our anniversary.
24th of august.
U called n said u miss me very much.
Iv seriously stopped myself to stop thinking bou u d.
Everytime iv stop thinking bou our stuff, u wil come interrupt my life again.
Haihz
No matter hw i miss u, i always tell myself nt to think bou it anymor.
Im doing very well all these while until u cum interrupt my life again.
Its been 8 yrs.
Iv been loving u for 8 yrs.
I neve tot i could love someone dis much n dis long.
Im so confused rite now!!
Wad wil i do if u appear infront of me to celebrate anniversary wif me?

Thursday, July 12, 2012

11/07/2012

Today ended wif tiredness.
Dunno y jus feel extra tired today eventhou i hav oly one class and pasar malam.
Suddenly hav de feeling to write here.
Mayb bcoz im havin my first day of menstrual cycle.
Today's sales not bad and ended peacefully.
Hope everything would go on smoothly as today.
So fast, dis year has come to de middle.
Reflash bac wad happen dis year n i couldnt remember wad i did dis year.
Nothing memorable for me. P
Life has been very boring n nothing interesting ever since i quit college.
Nothing worth my attention ever since i quit studing.
Life nowadays is all abou working n money.
Totally lifeless and nothing worth my attention.
Im nt as happy as last time eventhou iv got money to spend.
It has always been my dream to earn mor n live a better life.
Im nw living de life wher i could jus do wadeva i wan n leave for vacation whenever i wan.
Yet, im stil nt happy.
I seriously dunno wad is goin on wif me!
Tracy wong! Pls think carefully wad u actually hoping n wanted?
Friends? Im seriously hurt frm de previous friendship dat i commited so much! So i dun think i need anymor.
Girlfren? I dont think so coz i wouldnt wan to waste another 8 years on another person dat could possibly hurt me again! I couldnt bear dat kinda pain anymor.
Baby? Im nw having my baby boy dat could at least cheer me up d. I dun think i need another baby anymor as previously i seriously planned to get a test tube baby for myself
Iv already think alot of all i could ever think.
Stil couldnt figure out wad is de reason of unhappyness.
Where is de happy go lucky me dat is happy all de time?
Where is de me dat neve carries today's sorrow to tomorrow?
I dont noe! :(


Friday, July 6, 2012

我错了,原来当你真的非常非常喜欢一个女孩,当她有人疼,有人爱, 你会真心真意的祝福她,永远幸福快乐!只要她是幸福的,你也会感到很快乐! :)

Thursday, June 21, 2012

7.43am

Is 7.43am now.
N im stil awake. Neve sleep whole nite.
Im currently feeling free as im nt controlled by anyone n i can do wad i wan freely.
Dis is seriously de life dat iv been craving for all these years.
Bt im currently nt happy at all.
Im someone wic gets contented easily with simple happiness.
Bt y am i nt happy at all eventhou im dis kind of simple person?
Money always makes me happy as i always thinks dat nothing can make me happy except de hard earned money dat can buy me wad i wan.
Im wrong. Totally wrong.
Now, i have de money i wanted bt still im nt happy.
I dunno y, since whn i stop telling people abou my problems.
It has been my habit dat i dun share my problems to others.
I always keep keep keep n perhaps dis is de oly place dat i could throw all out wad i think.
I dont really hav a best fren to talk to as im afraid of being hurt once again afte de previous frenship dat actually hurts me loads.
Im always thinking y im someone dat cares so much whn i start caring?
Wouldnt it b good if im treating everyone equally?
Y im someone wic dun giv a damn on u whn u r no one to me n sacrifices everything whn i start letting u into my world?
I could do anything for de person i care whn i let her enter my world.
Dat is y im always hurt as i expect a return on how i treated her.
No one could giv u de same return as wad u sacrificed for her.
I noe we shouldnt expect for return whn u treat dat person sincerely, bt no matter hw u dun nd a return, u wil oso expect something frm her as she means alot to u.
Sometimes, it becomes jealousy!!!
I hate dis kinda me.
Sometimes it feels better to become someone wic is cold hearted, at least i wont get hurt.
One of de reason im here again is bcoz of her again.
De her dat im referring is de girl dat iv been loving since 8 yrs ago.
Received a msg asking me, '你快乐吗?'
I do nt noe hw to reply her at all.
Seeing her pic wif dat girl breaks my heart.
No matter hw i ask myself nt to think abou her anymor, il neve suceed.
I would rather dat she hates me n stop contacting me forever.
Eventhou im hoping her nt to cal me, bt each time my fon rings and messages comes in, im always hoping for her name to appear on my screen.
She seems to b very happy wif her current gf.
Dis is wad she has been wanting all these years.
De relationship dat is nt afraid of people seeing her holding hands wif her girlfren.
I could giv her dis kinda relationship as im always afraid of people seeing me holding hands wif her.
Im always afraid of dis n dat.
Always afraid dat my relatives would c n gossip bou it til de whole family noes.
Im afraid dat my parents noe bou it.
I couldnt even make her feel better.
I dun even noe y is she loving me so much wher i couldnt giv her anything.
I hav always been asking her bou wad she loves bou me, bt she couldnt answer each time i prompt dat ques to her.
De oly answer dat she gives me these 8 yrs is 'is de feel dat u giv me'
Im serious proud to say she was once mine.
Til nw, i havent reply her msg as i dunno wad to reply.
Perhaps dis is de reason i stay up whole nite.
I couldnt sleep at all.
How can i b happy withou her around?
I do nt noe hw to live withou her.
I miss her. I seriously miss her.
I miss her breakfast as well.
De sweet breakfast and havin her to kiss me to wake me up is so so so sweet n memorable.
Iv lost someone dat cares everything for me!!
Tracy wong! Stop thinking!!
U shud b happy for her as she has already found her ms.right!
I hope her ms.right would love her n loves her wif all she has!
Heartache!! :(






Tuesday, June 5, 2012

Today

Today has been a very tiring day.
Very hectic indeed.
Havin class early in de morning den in de afternoon another 2 classes!
Afte class, received a cal frm parents saying my boy is admitted to hosp again due to infection on his operation wound.
My heart were so worry de minute i heard dat.
He is my precious!!!
I love him so muc dat i wanted to cry whn i c needles poke him one afte another!
His hands r full wif injection wounds!
I would rather b de one dat is suffering behalf of him!
Heartache whn he cries each time he is being injected. :(
Afte class, went for business at pasar malam sumor n stand whole nite bcoz forgotten to bring de chair!
Tiring day bt could sleep at all.
Non stop checking on his temperature eventhou nurses is checking every hour.
Worries alot!
I miss u again.
De moment i hav problems, i always talk to u n u wil try to make me laugh by doin all de stupid things.
Bt nw, u r no longer mine.
Im also nt supposed to depend on u anymor.
I need to get used to de life withou ur existence.
De life withou having u saying 'good morning', good night, i love u, i miss u and most of all, 'i heart u biie'.
Saw u posted a pic of u n her today.
I can c, u r happy wif her!
Keep moving! Im happy for u.
As long as u r happy, im thankful.
Dis is de best way to love u!
All de best.
Shall sign off soon as is already 5.30am!
Shud get ready for bro's antibiotic injection AGAIN! :(


弟弟

我宁愿受苦的人是我!看见他这样,心里真的痛到无法形容! 第二次了。

Monday, June 4, 2012

一切都结束了!

今天一早收到一个很让我难过的message. 她终于出现了。一个月没联络的我们突然觉得很陌生。她终于找到了她的幸福!!我很为她高兴但我心真的痛到无法呼吸。眼泪不停的从眼睛流出来。不知道该如何回她message。最后回了她 "比,对不起。你想要的幸福,我给不到。我很高兴你找到了你的幸福。好好的过你的新生活吧。祝你永远幸福。我们永远会是最好的朋友!" 这次,一切真的结束了。心真的觉得很痛。很痛很痛。但会是一个好的开始。肥肥,加油!永远不要再给任何人一个伤到你的机会了。好好的一个人活下去。加油加油!

Saturday, May 26, 2012

Current life

Feeling contented wif my current life eventhou is tiring.
I would rather make myself busy til iv gt no time to think of all de things dat makes me unhappy.
Im jus trying to avoid.
I noe im nt over yet.
Bt at least dis time is de longest i could bear.
We haven been talking since dat saturday nite!
Both of us totally lost contact as we knew we couldnt continue dis kinda complicated relationship anymor.
Mayb dis is de best for de both of us.
Is a good start i would say.
I started my own little business nw.
Im nw very busy as im working as tuition teacher in de morning n afternoon.
At nite, i would have to open stall to do some small business at de pasar malam.
Is tiring as i hav nt enuf sleep at all.
Is de best way to at least keep myself happy.
Biie, r u ok over ther? I hope u are happy. Pls take care.
All i ever wanted to c is jus a little smile frm u.
Dat is mor den enuf to make me happy as well.
As long as u r happy, it would b totally too much n enuf for me.

Tuesday, May 8, 2012

The end


Is de end! I m seriously done wif dis 8 yrs complicated n tiring relationship!
Im jus lying to myself dat it wil actually work out.
In fact it is jus another excuse for me to hold on to such stupid thing.
Everything is clear n settled on saturday nite.
I wil neve allow dis to hurt me anymor as im seriously gettin enuf of dis.
Single is always de best as i love freedom.
Wif great frens around, life eventually turns out to b better den being couple n attached.
Reflecting bac de pics we took all these years makes me tears n heartache de whole nite of sat!
I was crying so hard n feeling so pain on my chest dat i hav to let u go.
Is nw gonna remain as memories dat i once appreciate most!
I kept each n everypics of us into a big box.
Keeping all things dat belongs to us into a big huge box n hav these put on top of my cupboard.
Save all our soft copy photos in my hard disc into an 16gb pendrive n is kept into big box too! Deleted our pics one by one in my hard disc is so pain!
Jus realize, our videos n pictures actually took quite a large amount of space oso.
Oly 2 gb left out of 16gb.
Everything is nw kept.
I hope i could really start a new life withou her existing in my life.
Having her around these years has been one of my habit.
I rely to her to do anythin for me n she did so well in managing my life all these years.
8 years is nt a short period of time.
Its been a habit dat de first person i think of all these years is oly her whn i wake up.
No one could ever replace her!
Iv always been so scared of letting others to noe bou our relationship as im afraid dat people wif discriminate dis kinda abnormal relationship.
im actually hurting her indirectly as she doesnt care abou hw ppl think of us as long as we r happy.
She is such an amazing girl iv ever met.
I muz let her go if i love her as dis is de best way to love her.
Seeing u happy is wad i could ever wish for.
De heartache of breaking is totally unbearable.
Both of us hugs for de very last time on sat nite n it is de longest hug ever between us.
I love her! I could say i seriously love her!
No one could replace her in my heart forever.
We had de most romantic walk by de beach for one last time as dat was de place we had our first kiss, de place whr we both got attached 8 years ago, de place whr we always go for dating, de place whr we talk whn we quarrel, de place whr i first said i love u n lots more!!
Its has always been de first time no matter wad im doing.
She makes me alive.
Thinking of hw we got attached is so cute.
I was quarreling wif my previous ex wic is her best fren n she is always fixing dis by bcomin de middleman of both my previous ex wif me.
She has always been so understandin n try to fix my relationship wif my previous ex.
Afte a long period of time, i hav feelings for her for her kindness n sincerity.
N she loves me bcoz of de care i put into each of my relationship.
Thinking of us as enermy whn we first met is jus too cute!
De place we first met were at paradise beach as we r havin bbq for gebly's birthday.
I hate u so much whn i first met u coz u were too childish wif those hyperbola action n i hate girls wif tattoos.
U had a tattoo on ur butt wic is pretty nice bt i stil hate dat.
Both of us quarreled n non stop fighting all de time.
Bt dis is wad makes us special.
De time whr i confess to u, i was too shy to say dat as u were my ex's bestie.
I was so happy whn u say u hav feelings for me too.
We started our relationship afte a month of underground relationship.
De amazing time whr i always sneak out of my house to meet u at ur place.
I hav gt no transport so iv gt to take bus n walk quite a distance to c u everyday afte sch.
Sumtimes is gebly who fetches us.
Those sneaky n frightening moment was so challenging bt we were so happy all de time.
Kissing u n hugging u to sleep has been one of my favourite thing to do ever since de day i said 'i love u'
I knew u r de person dat can b wif me forever!
U r de very first girl dat i ever wanna b with FOREVER!
Remember 20th july2005?
Dat was de day u gt slap by ur mum whn she found out abou us.
I wil remember dis day forever as i could nt protect u frm ur mum.
I was so sad dat u wanted to breakup wif me whn ur mum ask u to do so.
Im also mad at u as y u giv up on us so easily whn dis is oly such a small matter btween lesbians.
Dat was de first breakup between us.
We were broke up for two weeks until i cal u n beg u to nt giv up on us.
We hug so tightly whn we met afte nt meeting for two weeks n we recover.
Another obstacle whn my uncle told my grandma bou seeing us holding hands in public.
My grandma confronted me n i denied.
Frm dat day onwards, i did nt hold hands wif u on public anymor as im afraid of ppl noeing abou us.
U were so sad as u werent care abou hw others think of u.
We've been thru so much n u seriously stay as a very important role In my heart afte my family.
Eventhou we r always fighting, bt we always reconcile afte few days.
I would neve say sorry n so do u.
Both of us is having de very same personality wic do nt like to surrender.
Bt dat is wad makes us special!
We've been on n off for de past 8 years.
We even broke up bcoz u cheated on me wif ur ex.
I was so hurt dat moment bt i did forgive u coz i noe i couldnt live withou u. I felt so stupid dat moment for forgiving u bt my heart tells me to forgive u.
De moment whr u say u r leaving totally hurts me.
Long distance relationship is totally nt working.
I knew things wouldnt work out whn u told me coz iv gt no confident in us.
Bt u gav me de courage to hold on.
We went thru all thick n thin together n dis is wad makes us strong.
Iv been crazily in love wif u since de first day i confess n said ' i love u '.
Frens around me Doesnt noe bou us as we r always in a very low profile relationship all these years.
People always wonder y do i always get angry easily whn i talk on fon as we always quarrel.
Everyone is guessing bt no one noes.
De each n everything u say r always inmy mind.
i remember i asked u once, wad makes u love me. Ur answer totally melts my heart n il keep it forever in my heart.
I remember my first tattoo wif u.
Is on our breast, is a small love shape wif our initial 'wt'.
No one noes bou dis tattoo.
Til nw, my profile display name is always 'wt' behind!
Twsy wt!
Baby, u neve fail to light up my life.
U wil b always de one i love most in my life.
De thick n thin we went thru all these years wil remain forever in my heart.
I dun think i wil ever find anyone like u anymor in my life.
i wil remain single for de rest of my life coz no one could ever replace ur importance.
Iv always wanted to start a new relationship wif oth dat treats me so gud. Bt i couldnt coz whenever i go out wif dem, de one n oly person i my heart is u!
Baby, allow me to say one very last time ' i love u'.
May u find a person who appreciates u n love u wif all she has, protects u n most importantly, neve make u cry!





Thursday, May 3, 2012

Faith

Even god wans me to giv up.
I lost our ring today.
I wasnt realize til im at de cinema.
I always touch n play wif my ring whn im watchin movie.
Is really time to giv up!
Is finally lost in de air.
Everything is over.
Heartache thinkin of it!
Hope everything is gonna b over soon

Monday, April 30, 2012

recently

its been long since de last update here.
life has been hectic recently.
many things happen recently. wad would i say??
BAD LUCK describe it all.
shall update soon bou my current life.
till then take care :)

Thursday, March 1, 2012




为何要忘记一个人那么难!

Saturday, January 21, 2012

21 jan 2012

Afte a whole nite conversation wif sumone, i finally realize dat people around me r jus too fake!
Everyone is treating me like a fool!
I jus realize no matter hw i do,
I wil always b de one nt being trusted.
Whn things dun get right,
Im always de one being blamed eventhou i didnt did wad i shudnt!
Is so sad to noe dat even ppl u care thinks de same way!
Im hurt! Totally hurt.
I jus couldnt sleep de whole nite.
I shud really stop caring for sumone!
I hate dat kinda feeling of nt being trusted.

Friday, January 20, 2012

7 freaking days

Is 6am rite nw n im blogging dis usin mobile at stallions service apartment.
Babe is gonna leave me in another 7 hours for KL again!
Im nt gonna c dis best fren of mine for 7 freaking days.
Im seriously damn insane nt sleeping bt looking at her stupid yet cute sleeping face.
Having her around for a week plus is totally awesome as it reminds me bou our blissful beautiful past withou arguement n full of tolerant.
Thinking abou nt having her around me is totally sad b down.
I felt like hugging her bt i knew i shudnt as i shud keep a distance btween us.
I shudnt repeat wad i did on her years ago n hurt her once mor!
Im very comfortable wif de relationship between de both of us rite nw as ther's no commitment n promises made dat wil make us quarrel!
Babe, pls b bac in 7 mor days as i need u by my side.
ILY wif all i have n take care whn u r bac in KL for CNY celebrations. 

Thursday, January 19, 2012

Thank u! <3

U neve fail to cheer me.
Thanks for wad u've done.
:)

ILY

U're finally bac to my side.
Dis whole week of togetherness wif u is totally great.
Babe, thanks for everything u've done.
U neve fail to put a smile on my face.
Eventhou u're oly bac for a week,
It seems like its been a year.
Having u around is totally awesome.
Pls cum bac mor often as i nd a great fren like u around to cheers me.
Lastly, i love u wif all i have n u r de best iv ever had.
I miss us! Time flies.
Dis pic was taken years ago.
:)

Saturday, December 17, 2011

My love

My love as a fren for u has already faded since dat day. I dun noe y. Eventhou i told myself i shudnt care anymor for u, bt my brain stil cares bt mayb no longer dat strong! Wad i noe is i shud move on! N there's mor ppl dat cares for me more den u. Im so tired of being de one sacrificing for our frenship. Lao ee is de one dat is always being ther for me no matter wad happens. She neve let me feel de feeling of sacrifice n tiredness. I always feel comfortable being in such frenship. Lao ee, thanks for being ther always. Iloveu loads n thx for bringing my baby boy to dis world! He definately brings lots laughter n cheer up my life! <3 the love of my life!!!!!

Monday, December 12, 2011

My burfdae pic!

Love all my buddies! Dey totally rockz my world. Thank u again loves! <3 im glad god granted me all of u. :)

Saturday, December 10, 2011

my birthday

happy birthday to myself!
birthday is finally over!
it has nt been a happy one since my broke up 3 years ago.
nt having her in my life is jus meaningless.
everyone did alot for me n everyone jus made my day.
im glad dat god grated me these kind of awesome ppl to me.
im so so touched by all their doings.
some even baked cake for me.
it might nt taste as nice as pastries bt is de thoughts dat counts.
everyone juz sayang me too much.
seriously too much til i almost cried!
unfortunately, i couldnt get de one thing dat i wanted.
dis is wad we cal human.
u r already having de best of everything bt u wil neve noe hw to appreciate.
wher by someone dat doesnt even care or giv a damn on u, u wil care like hell.
i seriously damn mad on u.
u noe who u r.
everyone make de effort of making my day a special n unforgetable one bt wad bou u??
u hosted a dinner for me dat makes me happy bt i cant feel de sincereness at all.
u r jus gathering everyone to celebrate my big day bt withou de heart in it.
all i ever wanted is jus a simple msg saying happy birthday!
dats all i ever need.
u dun hav to bring me to any fine restaurant for dinner or anything.
all i every wanted is jus a wish frm u.
iv been waiting for de whole day n even at de last minute of my bdy,
im nt receiving a wish frm u personally.
im seriously very sad.
im seriously sad til i felt like crying out of sudden.
i dunno y i reacted dat way bt all i noe is i care alot for u.
i seriously do care alot!
wad is wrong wif me?
iv gt lots of frens n buddies around dat cares n love me loads.
bt i refuse n refrain myself frm dem.
all i ever wanted is u!
y is our friendship becoming lidat??/
im seriously so unhappy.
hw could u ruined my birthday??
hw can u hav de ability n me allowing u to ruined my bdy mood??
hw could u?? TEL ME!!!!
i was down de whole dinner session bt i knew u r no longer mine.
our friendship has ended long long time ago.
is me de oly dat thinks i could do sumthing to save our friendship.
bt too bad. im wrong totally wrong!
u dun even giv a damn on hw i feel n felt.
dis round, im serious gonna let u off.
i shud stop myself frm getting hurt d.
is enuf, totally enuf!!!
i shud face de fact dat everything is no longer de same.
take care n all de best to u.
it hurts badly. seriously hurts badly n
dis feeling is as same as hw my ex hurts me.
im totally fragile as for nw.
i shud really keep a distance frm anyone else to prevent ppl hurting me again.
the two most important girl in my life shud really disappear in my life frm nw on.
ah biie, ah dear gudbye!
if no de one dat dies at de end is MYSELF!


Saturday, December 3, 2011

Thank u! <3

Thank u for ur breakfast! Dat would b de best breakfast iv ever had. Its been long since dis kinda feeling comes. Babe, u neve fail to cheer me. Bt stil ther's a distance. I appreciates all ur thoughts n all u've done. Im really touched. No one coz ever do dis for me. Oly u. If i could turn bac time, i promise il neve hurt u like wad i did n love u wil all i have. If i could turn bac time, we would b de best couple on earth! Too bad, everything is too late! Babe take care. U hav all my blessings. Find a great person dat noes hw to appreciate u. Im sorry! Stop treating me so gud pls. U make me feel guilty. U deserve someone dat is so much better.

Friday, November 4, 2011

绝口 ! 不提爱你

看见你为了我哭真的是心死了!
已经两年了。为何还是放不下这段6年的感情?
分手那天起,我告诉自己可别让你再流泪
但我做不到!
我还是让你流泪了。
就算你总是做许多伤害我的事,
但到最后我还是原谅了你。
因为我相信你还是有爱我和疼我的一颗心。
你根本无法在我世界里消失。
也许我们才是最适合对方的吧。
因为只是我们彼此才知道对方的痛。
比,谢谢你这些年来对我的包容。
你会是我这一辈子最爱的好朋友!
谢谢你所为我付出的一切。
真的是很感动和高兴曾经拥有你。
给不了你想要的幸福是我这被子最遗憾的一件事。
我会把这六年的回忆永远记在心里。
比,我会永远永远的爱你。

Sunday, September 18, 2011

:(

Y am i so useless??
Im such a big girl d.
Bt stil make my parents worry for me so much!
Im so so useless!!!
Is so suffering each time i think abou hw useless i am!!!
Ther's nothing dat im gud at.
Y couldnt i do sumthing dat makes my parents proud of it??
Im so so so useless!
Ther's no other word dat could describe me at all!
Oly one n oly word, wic is
USELESS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Monday, September 12, 2011

Why??

Y is everyone around me cant stop betraying me one after another??
Im feeling so disappointing towards those i care.
Too much. I had too much.
I shud really stop caring for others n love myself more.
No one deserve my care n de oly human dat deserve my love is oly my family!! Is sad to say dat iv lost trust wif de word frienship. Is totally hurtful whn ppl u love n care betrays n disbelief wad u said. Wad can i say more?? Haihz! :(

Wednesday, August 24, 2011

24th august 2011

Is 24th of august!
Is de anniversary day of us.
Eventhou its been long since break up, i still miss de day.
Is de day we started our promise years ago..
Haihz

Tuesday, August 16, 2011

我心很痛很痛很痛!
真的是很痛!
:(

Friday, August 12, 2011

你是錯的人!!!


明知道愛情並不牢靠 但是我還是拼命往裡跳
明知道再走可能是監牢 但是我還是相信只是煎熬
朋友都勸我不要不要 不要拿自己的幸福開玩笑
但是做人已經那麼累 假惺惺的想要逃
在愛裡連真心都不能給 這才真正的可笑
愛得太真 太容易 讓自己犧牲 太容易讓自己沉淪
太容易 不顧一切 滿是傷痕
我太笨 明知道你是錯的人
明知道這不是緣分 但是我還奮不顧身
明知道愛情並不牢靠 但是我還是拼命往裡跳
明知道再走可能是監牢 但是我還是相信只是煎熬
朋友都勸我不要不要 不要拿自己的幸福開玩笑
但是做人已經那麼累 假惺惺的想要逃
在愛裡連真心都不能給 這才真的真正的可笑
愛得太真 太容易 讓自己犧牲 太容易讓自己沉淪
太容易 不顧一切 滿是傷痕
我太笨 明知道你是錯的人
明知道這不是緣分 但是我還奮不顧身
可能 在愛裡面這樣算笨
可能 永遠沒有所謂永恆
但是我 不願放棄這裡面一點點可能 寧願笨也不想要悔恨
愛得太真 太容易 讓自己犧牲 太容易讓自己沉淪 太容易 不顧一切 滿是傷痕
我太笨 明知道你是錯的人 明知道這不是緣分 但我還是奮不顧身
我太笨 明知道你是錯的人 明知道這不是緣分 但我相信有點可能!



你是錯的人!!!
saw dis pic on net!
she has a very beautiful hair!
she tied it perfectly!
how i hope sumone could tie dis n hang out whole day wif me.
anyone?? babe, u?? :)

Friday, August 5, 2011

when is it gonna happen??
iv been waiting for it since forever!